Christmas Eve Spirit 2012

Christmas Eve, Christmas time, Christmas spirit …. 

is the strongest spiritual time of the entire year. It always was. I always remember about the Christmas times I spent in Germany, five years. I always remember about the quiet and isolation of my parental home, about my lonely and passionate mother. About the years we could be together, but we didn’t. About the years I was in love and shared the time giving my soul out of myself. I never think about special gifts. I think about facts, people, feelings, stories, Stollen und Plätzchen.

I never think about special gifts, as goods. Only maybe about the years when I played the big and rich Santa Claus for people who couldn’t afford the joy of giving their children the special Christmas stuff. The children are children, they appreciate gifts as goods. We have to grow up, to face the real life, to suffer, to lose and to realize that the real Christmas Spirit is not necessarily a material valuable object, but more the abstract things which touch the soul and the mind. 

I don’t need to spend more money for special food, I don’t need to eat more or to drink more. This is a valuable lesson I have learned for some years ago.

What I enjoyed most for Christmas was always to share and to offer without expecting  a payback, but a minimum of feedback, the expressed joy :-)
If I cannot do this anymore, the Christmas is a little bit poorer, I have to admitt it.

I miss the poor, but happy Christmas Eve in the remote areas of Himalaya, in 2008 and in 2010.

From all my Christmas experiences (I spent this time of the year in Brasov, Maramures, Malta, Salzburg, Tanzania, Freiburg/Germany, Frankfurt am Main/Germany, Kassel/Germany, Norway, Paris, Zell am See/Austria, St. Moritz/Swiss, Saas-Fee& Zermatt/Swiss), what I miss tonight is the time in the remote high Himalaya. Just look at my happy face here :-), Dhole, 24.12.2010.

Maybe not the time to mention, but sometimes I also experienced not so nice things coming from people who considered themselves to be my friends. People who didn't appreciate my generosity and efforts and just betrayed my trust. 

So, few years ago I lost some thousands of euro, my last savings I had, because “friends” never returned the loan and "have forgotten" to inform me in due time. Or, previous days I lost something by not being paid by an employer (so, I left the project after 8 months) and the most ugly part of the story is that he didn’t consider to mention it to me before the payment day. Or even on the day of payment or the next day. And would be some other unpleasant surprises which mostly cost me big amounts of money or deep feelings damage. Somehow .... I can talk about a sort of fatidical tradition which formed exactly in December ... I wonder why.

Yes, money are - unfortunately - the entire engine for “a happy Christmas”, in this society. 

This is why …. I miss the high remote areas of Himalayas, where the values are still so different and the life means a different way of fight. Because, even if the word fight doesn’t suit here, the true is that the human being is struggling to live and survive …. 23 years ago we had so different worries, being on the streets and facing the bloody streets war in Bucharest .... 

What I wish for Christmas?

That the people (including myself) learn to communicate, 

to moderate more carefully this fake life on internet (Facebook, for instant), 

to listen more, 

to appreciate more, 

to understand more, 

to protect more, 

to offer more - not only for Christmas -, 

to become deeper in thoughts,

to value the older people,

to value the impact of the details in their actions.

What I wish myself for Christmas? 

To find the right path, 

to stay fit and healthy as I am since a while, 

to love and to be loved, 

to find the solutions for some specific issues in my life, 

to communicate better, 

to dare knowing people 

and 

to be able to spend my next Christmas far away in the high Himalayas. 

I wish to involve less or not at all in causes which I cannot win by myself (see my actions about a better natural environment, nature protection, animals protection, better races organization) 

and 

to stop telling others we are not on the right path for a healthy long term development of our society/segments of it. 

I consider, we should learn again to protect the nature, not only to make use of it, 

we should learn to manufacture small gifts, not to go shopping and spend a lot of money, 

to recycle goods and materials,

to appreciate others efforts and intentions,

to show respect for the life and for the world. Yes, I know, the words are so empty here .... a lot of words for no message.

 I try to become a better person. Much more than I consider to be. Sometimes I have the strong feeling that the more intense sport activity change me a little bit and this is an issue I will take care of for 2013 :-)

I dislike living at the limit (financial), 

but I enjoy 

being healthy, 

having a job and 

finding the power of hopping in a big new good luck, 

because ....... the life is all about some good luck after all!

Merry Christmas to everyone!