Christmas Eve, Christmas time, Christmas spirit ….
strongest spiritual time of the entire year. It always was. I always remember about the
Christmas times I spent in Germany, five years. I always remember about the
quiet and isolation of my parental home, about my lonely and passionate mother.
About the years we could be together, but we didn’t. About the years I was in
love and shared the time giving my soul out of myself. I never think about
special gifts. I think about facts, people, feelings, stories, Stollen und Plätzchen.
I never think about special gifts, as goods. Only maybe about the years when I played the big and rich Santa
Claus for people who couldn’t afford the joy of giving their children the
special Christmas stuff. The children are children, they appreciate gifts as goods. We
have to grow up, to face the real life, to suffer, to lose and to realize that
the real Christmas Spirit is not necessarily a material valuable object, but more
the abstract things which touch the soul and the mind.
I don’t need to spend
more money for special food, I don’t need to eat more or to drink more. This is
a valuable lesson I have learned for some years ago.
What I enjoyed most for Christmas was
always to share and to offer without expecting a payback, but a minimum of feedback, the expressed joy :-)
If I cannot do this anymore, the Christmas is a
little bit poorer, I have to admitt it.
I miss the poor, but happy Christmas Eve in
the remote areas of Himalaya, in 2008
and in 2010.
From all my Christmas experiences (I spent
this time of the year in Brasov, Maramures, Malta, Salzburg, Tanzania, Freiburg/Germany,
Frankfurt am Main/Germany, Kassel/Germany, Norway, Paris, Zell am See/Austria,
St. Moritz/Swiss, Saas-Fee& Zermatt/Swiss), what I miss tonight is the
time in the remote high Himalaya. Just look at my happy face here :-), Dhole, 24.12.2010.
Maybe not the time to mention, but sometimes I
also experienced not so nice things coming from people who considered
themselves to be my friends. People who didn't appreciate my generosity and efforts and just betrayed my trust.
So, few years ago I lost some thousands of euro, my last savings I had, because
“friends” never returned the loan and "have forgotten" to inform me in due time. Or, previous days I lost something by not being
paid by an employer (so, I left the project after 8 months) and the most ugly
part of the story is that he didn’t consider to mention it to me before the
payment day. Or even on the day of payment or the next day. And would be some
other unpleasant surprises which mostly cost me big amounts of money or deep feelings damage. Somehow .... I can talk about a sort of fatidical tradition which formed exactly in December ... I wonder why.
Yes, money are - unfortunately - the entire engine for “a
happy Christmas”, in this society.
This is why …. I miss the high remote areas
of Himalayas, where the values are still so different and the life means a
different way of fight. Because, even if the word fight doesn’t suit here, the
true is that the human being is struggling to live and survive …. 23 years ago we had so different worries, being on the streets and facing the bloody streets war in Bucharest ....
What I wish for Christmas?
That the people (including myself) learn to communicate,
moderate more carefully this fake life on internet (Facebook, for instant),
to appreciate more,
to understand more,
to protect more,
more - not only for Christmas -,
to become deeper in thoughts,
to value the older people,
to value the impact of the details in their actions.
What I wish myself for Christmas?
the right path,
to stay fit and healthy as I am since a while,
to love and to
to find the solutions for some specific issues in my life,
to dare knowing people
to be able to spend my next
Christmas far away in the high Himalayas.
I wish to involve less or not at all in causes
which I cannot win by myself (see my actions about a better natural
environment, nature protection, animals protection, better races organization)
to stop telling others we are not on the right path for a healthy long term
development of our society/segments of it.
I consider, we should learn again to protect the nature, not only to make use of it,
we should learn to manufacture small gifts, not to go shopping and spend a lot of money,
to recycle goods and materials,
to appreciate others efforts and intentions,
to show respect for the life and for the world. Yes, I know, the words are so empty here .... a lot of words for no message.
I try to become a better person. Much more than I consider to be. Sometimes I have the strong feeling that the more intense sport activity change me a little bit and this is an issue I will take care of for 2013 :-)
I dislike living at the limit (financial),
but I enjoy
having a job and
finding the power of hopping in a big new good
because ....... the life is all about some good luck after all!
Merry Christmas to everyone!